NEXT PHASE OF MY JOURNEY

I cannot even begin to tell you how much my life has changed since July, but I am not satisfied yet! The weight is coming off, Dudley and Bob is going great and my social life is thriving but there is a new movement I want to start and that is conquering fears. With this in mind I have come out with two scenarios that I think will test some of my deepest fears:

1 – I will be boxing “Chuy Manana” within 3 months.

I have always avoided getting in fights. For one, I have never known how to control my size or strength, and I also feel a certain moral aversion to physical violence.

I never got in a fight growing up for two reasons: I was always bigger than all the other kids, and I can usually talk myself out of any kind of trouble I am in. I am inspired by my friend Karl who got into boxing shape 3 years ago and fought at Texas State in a boxing match. He didn’t win, but he still did a great job and showed no fear even when he was in a ring with a guy trying to knock his head off. That’s something I would have been scared to do. My quest for new experience makes me feel like this is the right situation with Chuy. I know him and he is a great guy. I am really looking forward to kick my inner Rocky into overdrive and compete with a friend that I have made along this journey. In some subtle way I will be stepping into the ring against myself, pitting my fear against itself in a physical confrontation and test of will. Hopefully, I'll kick the shit out of it.

2 – Once I hit the weight requirement for skydiving I am going! I am not that afraid of heights, but jumping out of a plane is something I never thought I would want to do. When I was about 8 years old one of my friend's mom offered to pay for a ride at Fiesta Texas for us. The ride tethers you to a cable, then pulls you up into the air to about 150 feet and drops you. I couldn’t get myself to do it because I couldn’t handle the height. That was when I felt I was too big to do it, though, and now that I am working my way towards a suitable weight to skydive I am all about it. All my friends that have done it say it’s the best time in the world, and why would I want to miss out on that? Hopefully I can do it sometime in the April/May time frame.

By completing these two goals I will show myself that it's not just the weight I am changing but rather my entire outlook on life.